Finding Autonomy in Motherhood
Motherhood changes, learning to prioritize myself, + the age of neurodivergence
This week has been a whirlwind, dear reader + I’m reminded that the only thing constant is change; I am constantly changing. Yes, I know we are ALL changing, all the time— in little + big ways, but maybe what I really want to say is I am embracing change more. Sure, I’ve been saying this for weeks {maybe months, I don’t know. Time means nothing, anymore}.
Motherhood has felt weird lately.
I don’t quite know how to explain it + that probably means I shouldn’t, but the vibes have been 2020 all over again. I am NOT here for that. Maybe I’m feeling a little lost in what to do + how to do it. Maybe, not lost as in who I am as I felt back when the boys were born and my whole identity change or in the way being lost about what I am wanting life to look like, but as in, how do I approach parenting in a way that allow these neurodivergent babies of mine to exist in a way that is held while not taxing myself to depletion. {You can absolutely insert work instead of children here or any other role you have that you are devoted.}
While, YES, I will do anything for the boys, I cannot shrink myself or my world to have it only be about them again which I find so common in the mamas I know. We are all wanting what is best for our kids— whether we have supportive partners, single mamas, or divorced and trying to co-parent. Truly, I think there is a lot of change coming for how we “do” things + the systems we have in place. And it is time!